sean leaves for bmt 5 weekes from yesterday! the time is really flying and i hope it continues after he leaves. i'm getting nervous about handling so much by myself. not knowing our first station is stressing me out and thinking about a military move really makes my teeth chatter. i know it'll allll be fine and my superwoman powers will kick into gear (:p), but i still need my freak out moments.
i'm anxious to know our first station so i can make school plans. i'm afraid that if i don't get it written in stone that i will be weak and take the easy road. i'm also afraid that i will get baby fever and change my mind. but maybe i should pay attention if i do because we'll have the opportunity for me not to work and so on. ugh. i dunno. i wish i could permanently make that decision, but i feel like i'm too young to nix any chance of future pregnancies. i just wish i could wave a wand and be in school. :(
i'm very thankful for how childcare has worked out. not needing a babysitter makes it much easier. i'm a bit anxious about relying on my mom to make it down here by 5am 3 days a week, but we'll see.
moving stresses me out. military moving is a whole new ballgame for me. i know we'll get more info as we need it, but all the details and things you have to be mindful of send my brain whirling. if anyone can do it, i know i can, but that doesn't mean i don't feel the stress of being on a learning curve.
i seriously have felt like hyperventilating the past few days. pms doesn'tg help. :p i'll be fine...just gotta take it one step at a time. i'm really excited and ready to get this road on the show!
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